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A couple of years ago, I went to Tokyo with my husband, and I ate the most remarkable sushi restaurant. I dont even eat fish. Im vegan. So that tells you how good it was. Even with just vegetables, this sushi was the stuff you dreamed about. The restaurant has six seats. My husband and I marveled at how anyone can make rice so superior to all other rice. We wondered why they didnt make a bigger restaurant and be the most popular place in town. Our local friends explains to us that all the best restaurants in Tokyo are that small and do only one type of dish: sushi or tempura or teriyaki. Because they want to do that thing well and beautifully. And its not aboutquantity. Its about taking pleasure in the perfection and beauty of the particular. Im still learning now that its about good and maybe never done. And the joy and work ethic and virtuosity we bring to the particular can impart a singular type of enjoyment to those we give to and of course, to ourselves . In my professional life, it also took me time to find my own reasons for doing my work. The first film I was in came out in 1994. Again , appallingly, the year most of you were born, I was 13 years old upon the films release and I can still quote what the New York Times said about me verbatim：Ms Portman poses better than she acts. The film had a universally tepid critic response and went on to bomb commercially. That film was called The Professional, or Leon in Europe. And today, 20 years and 35 films later, it is still the film people approach me about the most to tell me how much they loved it , how much it moved them. I feel lucky that my first experience of releasinga film was initially such a disaster by all standards and measures. I learned early that my meaning had to be from the experience of making the film and the possibility of connecting with individuals rather than the foremost trophies in my industry：financial and critical success. And also these initial reactions could be false predictors of your work’s ultimate legacy . I started choosing only jobs that I’m passionate about and from which I knew I could glean meaningful experiences. This thoroughly confused everyone around me : agents, producers and audiences alike. I made Gotya’s Ghost，a foreign independent film and studied art history visiting the produce everyday for 4 months as I read about Goya and the Spanish Inquisition. I made V for Vendetta, studio action movie for which I learned everything I could about freedom fighters whom otherwise may be called terrorists from Menachem Begin to Weather Undergroud.I made Your Highness, a pothead comedy with Danny McBride and laughed for 3months straight. I was able to own my meaning and not have it be determined by box office receipts or prestige. By the time I got to making Black Swan , the experience was entirely my own . I felt immune to the worst things anyone could say or write about me and to whether the audience felt like to see my movie or not. It was instructive for me to see for ballet dancers once your technique gets to a certain level, the only thing that separates you from others is your quirks or even flaws. One ballerina was famous for how she turned slightly off balanced. You can never be the best, technically. Someone will always have a higher jump or a more beautiful line .The only thing you can be the best at is developing your own self. Authoring your own experience was very much what Black Swan itself was about. I worked with Darren Aronofsky the director who changed my last line in the movie to It was perfect. Because my character Nina is only artistically successful when she finds perfection and pleasure for herself not when she was trying to be perfect in the eyes of others. So when Black Swan was successful financially and I began receiving accolades，I felt honored and grateful to have connected with people. But the true core of my meaning I had already established. And I needed it to be independent of people’s reactions to me. People told me that Black Swan was an artistic risk . A scary challenge to try to portray a professional ballet dancer . But it didnt feel like courage or daring that drove me do it. I was so oblivious to my own limits that I did things I was woefully unprepared to do. And so the very inexperience that in college had made me insecure ,made me want to play by others rules，now is making me actually take risks. I didn’t even realize were risks. When Darren asked me if I could do ballet, I told him I was basically a ballerina which by the way I wholeheartedly believed. When it quickly became clear that preparing for the film that I was 15yearsaway from being a ballerina. It made me work a million times harder and of course the magic of cinema and body doubles helped the final effect. But the point is, if I had known my own limitations I never would have taken the risk. And the risk led to one of my greatest artistic personal experiences. And that I not only felt completely free, I also met my husband during the filming. Similarly, I just directed my first film, A Tale of Love in Darkness. I was quite blind to the challenges ahead of me. The film is a period film, completely in Hebrew in which I also with an eight-year-old child as a costar. All of these are challenges I should have been terrified of , as I was completely unprepared for them, but my complete ignorance to my own limitations looked like confidence and got me into the directors chair. Once there, I had to figure it all out, and my belief that I could handle these things contrary to all evidence of my ability to do so was only half the battle. The otherhalf was very hard work. The experience was the deepest and most meaningful one of your career. Now clearly Im not urging you to go and perform heart surgery without knowledge to do so! Making movies admittedly has drastic consequences than most professions and allows for a lot of effects that make up for mistakes. The thing Im saying is , make use of the fact that you dont doubt yourself too much right now. As we get older, we get more realistic and that includes about our own abilities or lack hereof. And that realism does us no favors. People always talk about diving into things youre afraid of. That never worked for me. If Im afraid, I run away. And I would probably urge my child to do the same. Fear protects us in many ways. What has served me is diving into my own obliviousness. Being more confident than I should be which everyone tends to decry American kids and those of us who have been grade inflated and ego inflated. Well, it can be a good thing if it makes you trythings you never might have tried. Your inexperience is an asset, and will allow you to think in original and unconventional ways. Accept your lack of knowledge and it as your asset. I know a famous violinist who told me that he cant compose because he knows too many pieces so when he starts thinking of the note an existing piece immediately comes to mind. Just starting out one of your biggest strengths is not knowing how things are supposed to be. You can compose freely because your mind isnt cluttered with too many pieces. And you dont take for granted the way how things are. The only way you know how to do things is your own way. You here will all go on to achieve great things. There is no doubt about that. Each time you set out to do something new your inexperience can either lead you down a path where you will conform to someone elses values or you can forge your own path even though you dont realize thats what youre doing. If your reasons are your own, your path, evenif its a strange and clumsy path will be wholly yours and you will control the rewards of what you do by making your internal life fulfilling. At the risk of sounding like a Miss America contestant，the most fulfilling things I’ve experienced have truly been the human interactions spending time with women in village banks in Mevico，with FINCA microfinance organization meeting young women who were the first and the only in their communities to attend secondary schools in rural Kenya with Free the Children group that built sustainable schools in developing countries, tracking with gorilla conservationists in Rwanda. Its a cliché, because its true, that helping others ends up helping you more than anyone. Getting out of your own concerns and caring about some elses life for a while reminds you that you are not the center of the universe. And that in the way were generous or not we can change the course of someones life. Even at work, the small feat of kindness crew members, directors, fellow actors have shown me have had the most lasting impact. And of course, first and foremost, the center of my world is the live that I share with my family and friends. wish for you that your friends will be with you through it all, as my friends from Harvard have been together since we graduated. My friend from school are still very close. We have nursed each other through heartaches and danced at each others weddings, Weve held each other at funerals and rocked each others new babies, We worked together on projects, helped each other get jobs and thrown parties for when weve quit bad ones. And now our children are creating a second generation of friendship as we look at them toddling together. Haggard and disheveled working parents that we are. Grab the good people around you and dont let them go . The biggest asset this school offers you is a group of peers that will both be your family and your school for life. I remember always being pissed at the spring here in Cambridge. Tricking us into remembering a sunny yard full of laughing Frisbee throwers. After 8 months of dark freezing library dwelling. It was like the school has managed to turn on the good weather as a last memory we should keep in mind that would make us want to come back. But as I get farther away from my years here I know that the power of this school is much deeper than weather control. It changed the very questions that I was asking to quote one of my favorite thinkers Abraham Ioshua Heschel: To be or not to be is not the question，the vital question is how to be and how not to be. Thank you. I can’t wait to see how you do all the beautiful things you will do!
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