介绍:
1. I was raised to be a doubter. I doubted everything. If the weatherman said there was a 2% chance of rain, I'd bring an umbrella. In relationships, I was so busy doubting love, I rarely got around to actually expressing it.
2. When I first moved to L.A., I got a job as a nanny. I'm taking care of a three-year-old for a couple of months and we really start to bond. We're hanging out at the park one day, and he walks up to me and he says,"I love you". He's just standing there staring at me, and I break the Silence with the longest most awkward “Aww".
3. I take him home, and I go home confused. Love….He doesn't love me. I was just some girl hired to make sure he doesn't die. That's not love, right? And did I love him? I mean. sure.
4. I couldnt find any logical reason for love that night, but I did find that love is simply a feeling. It ebbs and it flows, and my doubting it didn't change its existence. It just cut me off from feeling it.
5. It was at that moment that I stopped doubting love, because I did love that kid And the next time I saw him. I was determined to tell him.
我从小被教以要成为一个怀疑者。我怀疑一切。如果天气预报员说有2%的可能性下雨,我就会带把伞。在恋爱中,我总是忙于怀疑爱情,很少有时间去表达它。
当我第一次搬到洛杉矶的时候,我找到了一份保姆的工作。我照顾一个三岁的孩子,在照顾他的这几个月我们就开始建立了感情。有一天我们在公园闲逛,他走到我面前说,“我爱你。”他只是站在那里盯着我看,我用最长的最尴尬的一声“哦”打破了僵局。
我带他回家,在回家路上我感到很疑惑。爱..他不爱我。我只是个被雇来确保他不会死掉的保姆。那不是爱,对吧?我爱他吗?我的意思是,当然爱。
那天晚上我找不到任何符合逻辑的关于爱的原因,但我确实发现爱只是一种感觉。它起起伏伏,我的怀疑并没有改变爱的存在。它只是割裂了我感受爱的能力。
就在那一刻,我不再怀疑爱,因为我真的爱那个孩子。当我再次见到他时,我决定告诉他。
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