S11E13 Staring at the End

I don’t like questions without any answers, like”Where do we go when we die?” I mean, I know what happens physiologically speaking, but beyond that, what really happens? Anything? That’s what you start asking yourself, when you live on a clock. All these questions without any answers, they’ll drive you nuts. That’s why I like what I do. Fixing babies, birthing babies, no ambiguity there, no questions, just answers, clear, precise, obvious answers. And life—beautiful new life, hope for the future. God I miss that. 我讨厌没有答案的问题，例如“我们死后将归身何处？”我是说，我知道死亡的生理过程，但超越肉体的层面呢？我们将去哪里？当你自知时日无多，你就会问自己这样的问题，所有这些没有答案的问题，让人烦躁。也正因如此，我爱我的工作。诊治婴儿，接生婴儿。过程清楚明白，不存在问题，只有答案，清晰、精确、明显的答案。还有生命——美好的生命，和对未来的憧憬。天哪，我真怀念那种感觉。 I never placed much value in wondering about an afterlife, my concern was always this life. What would I do with it? How would I make my mark? I wanted to break new ground. I wanted to leave a legacy. I wanted my life, my brain, my existence to mean something. The thing that I never really thought about though, the thing I never really wrapped my brian around. Until now was in order to do that, in order to be remembered, in order to leave something significant behind, you have to live. 我不在乎来事会如何，我关注的一直是当下的生活。我该怎么做？怎么在人生轨迹上留下印记？我想独树一帜，我想恩泽后人，我希望我的生命、我的智慧、我的存在有意义。尽管这是我未曾想过的事情，这些从来不曾萦绕脑边的事。直到现在，为了能做到，为了能被铭记，为了能留下些许有意义的东西，你必须得活下去。